Open bar

Here I am again!  I think I am fairly current on my blog reading, but again because I've been reading on my phone that doesn't allow me to comment.  I hope you all know how important you are to me! 

So far 2011 has been interesting.  I see that many of you have been chosing your words for the year, I have come to realize that mine is REALIZATION.   Oh am I supposed to put the definition?  Let me go grab it....who knows it might make me realize even more that it is right for me. 

Definition of REALIZATION


1: the action of realizing : the state of being realized

2: something realized

Yeah, no, pretty much what I thought lol  So anyway, so far this year I have realized and started to deal with (aka fix) two things in my life.  And in doing that I have realized that one of those things I just can't change or fix.  That thing is understanding just how much other people affect me.  Meaning moods, attitudes etc.  There are some people that I am definitely more in tune with, but most of the time I feel what someone close to me is feeling.  I don't think I can fix/change this, I realize that it is just a part of me.  But I do need to learn how to....I don't know....maybe compartmentalize it?  I don't like my moods changing based on someone elses' mood.

The other thing?  Well I am not ready to share it, I am still in the throes of processing it.  I just had this realization a few days ago.  I will go on record and say that this does not have anything to do with the bf.

Moving on....this coming Friday night is my brother's (and sister in law!  I have to get used to it lol) wedding reception.  I am excited and nervous all at the same time.  There will be a few family members there that....well....aren't really high on my list of people that I like.  I don't want to go into too much detail, but I have been made to feel like shit and that they are genuinely upset that they are related to me.  Not only will they be there, but I found out today that I am sitting at the table with them.  Hence the title....open bar.  I need to be careful and hopefully not get mouthy.  The bf is not going with me, I told him that he didn't have to, that it wasn't important to me for him to be there...and it isn't. 

Job is going good, I gave my notice at the make up place (my last day is the 29th) Eating is going ok, weight loss is still the 1-2 lbs a week.  I saw my primary care doctor the other day, he is very happy with my progress. 

Yadda yadda yadda.....I should have some pics to post.  Funnily enough I hope that someone takes pics of me and tags me in them!  My my how things change huh????