A quickie....

I just wanted to share some of my pics from Mini B.O.O.B.S invade NYC!  I will write more later!  XOXOXO   Love love LOVE these women and can't wait until I see the rest of you!!!

I wish I took more pics at the brunch, or shall I say I wish I took more pics that were IN FOCUS?  Damn margaritas!!! 

P.S.  FB buds I won't tag you but feel free to tag yourself! 

Train thought....

So I'm on the train on my way to nyc...I get to see a whole bunch of you tonight and tomorrow and I'm so happy!
The bf is remodeling the bathroom this weekend so I took the opportunity to treat myself to a hotel room tonight....it just makes sense you know?  This afternoon I had an appt to get my hair did so what to do about a shower? Gym! Lol I hopped on the treadmill for 15 then utilized the shower facilities. Hey I went lol and I gotta say 15 min at a 4.3 walk and not out of breath or broke a sweat...good? I haven't been there since early Dec!
Nsv to report....yesterday I was holding the bf's 4 year old niece...she was hanging on me like a monkey arms around my neck and legs around my waist...ALL the way around like ankles locked on the otherside!!! She looks at me and says "carmie.....you're skinny....we are skinny girls!" I said "oh rhiannon I LOVE you!" Ha. Good times!
See some of you soon!! Xoxo

News flash...things change!!

   That is me, sipping on a Shamrock shake.  You may recall last year....well I was going to add last years version of that pic but Blogger (or my computer) is acting up.  Anyway...I've always loved those dang shakes.  I would look forward to March every year just for them.  I recall that one year, EVERY SINGLE DAY I had one.  Along with the QP with cheese value meal.  I was so excited to have one this year, I told myself that I was only going to have half of it.  So what happened?  I got it, they put piles of whipped cream on top which I wasn't happy about.  I took a sip and....wow that is pretty sweet.  Another sip, damn that is really fucking sweet.  One more sip, bleh.  Oooooonnnneeeee more sip.....man this is fucking nasty.  Then I threw it away.  The 300 lb version of me would have kept drinking it.  Then polished off the value meal.  Yup.

I went bra shopping today because the 38D ones are big, both band & cup.  I went to LB, because that is what I know.  Measure me up lady.  36D.  Pretty much what I thought.  Went in the dressing room...yeah not so much.  The chick brought me 36DD and 38C.  One thing I never knew with my big knockers before was that my right one is bigger.  Now that the National-Geographic-Tit-Fairy has visited me it is noticeable.  I left with no bras, after an hour & half of trying on all 3 sizes in every style LB has.  That sucks.  You know what else sucks?  The mass of loose skin and crevices that make up my armpits.  That's ok, I will deal with it rather than the extra nearly 100lbs.  The bf has offered to shave my pits for me because there is a canyon sized spot that I cannot get.  Lovely.

I've done something that I must admit to you.  I told one of my friends about this and she told me she would beat me up if I did it again.  I've done it twice.  I web searched it and it turns out it is an eating disorder.  Two times I ate something that I knew was bad and I knew it wouldn't go down.  So I chewed it up and spit it out.  Nasty.  I felt disgusting doing it.  I was ashamed.  I was disappointed.  I did it in my car, at the far end of a parking lot, hiding.  I won't do it again.  Period.

My 199 was a fleeting thought....it went up to 204.  Then down to 202.  Then rested at 200.  I had an appointment with my bariatric PA, talked to her about the self sabotage.  She talked about getting to a spot that someone has never been to, and getting scared.  Because conceiveably the last time I was under 200 I was a teenager, and EARLY teenager.  She suggested that I use my support system, she specifically said you guys (I told her about blogging and BOOBS etc) and maybe the bariatric therapist.  We shall see about that one, but definitely using you guys!  My follow up appointment with my PCP involved a lot of questions about my drop in energy, some confusion etc.  He asked if I could be preggers, I said NOOOOOOO he said are you sure?  I said "Do you still have to have sex to get pregnant?"  He said yes, and I said "still no chance"  lol  They took 5 (I think) vials of blood.  Checking everything, still waiting for the results.  But I've been feeling better.  I think I was wicked dehydrated.  My dear Lori bought a case of water to work and we are having a drinking contest, at least 1 bottle of water at work, we are saving the caps and will do some sort of art project at some point.  Neither one of us drink nearly enough, but we are working on it.  For Lent I gave up dehydration lol.  Hydrate!

I cannot wait for next weekend!  I get to see some of my favorite BOOBS, hopefully it will tide me over until I can see the rest of my favorite BOOBS in September!

Smile

That is what I did when I read each and every comment on my year post.  You guys are the best, thank you for all your sweet comments.

Not much new in Carmie-land....the bf has the flu, so he is like a 39 year old baby...bleh...he seems better today but his ADD kicked in big time today, he can't be alone for 2 dang minutes without going crazy.  So the minute I walked in today he was like a beagle on a cocaine bender!  I had a serious migrane yesterday, but that was at the height of his flu-ness  so I spent the evening yesterday cooking.  Chicken soup, and 2 chicken concoctions....one with green peppers, onions and that new cooking creamstuff....the other was for me, chicken, green peppers, onions, roma tomatoes and pesto sauce...yummm.  My cooking usually consists of throwing a bunch of crap together and hoping it tastes ok lol  My chef dad would be so proud :-) 

This weekend I (or my stomach) "forgot" that I had a band.  There was pizza, there was popcorn, there was snacks yadda yadda yadda.  Today I was EXTREMELY snacky all day...No excuses just making a statement. 

I have an appointment on Thursday with my PCP, as a follow up to my bloodwork showing my thyroid off and a folate deficiency.  I want to talk to him about sugar issues.  A few times last week after lunch I crashed HARD, and Lori has commented that I seem spacy every now and then, mostly in the morning.  She brought in her blood tester thingy, we checked it a few times last week and it seemed ok.  Maybe its a side effect to upping my thyroid meds?  I also have an appointment next Monday with my bariatric doctor, we'll see what they have to say too.

Bleh this post is a whole lotta nothing lol  Sorry I don't have anything interesting to say!!